i know what i must do.

Living life with no regrets is tough. Even the best of us, I'm certain, allows tinges of regret to seep into our lives; regret for doing, or not doing, something. Regret is so powerful that it instills a fear; the fear that what we do or don't do will haunt us tomorrow.

I know what I must do to avoid regret, or its cousin guilt. I know exactly what I must do. Yet, identifying this goal and working towards it is often much like a groceries trip at Tesco; you go in with the single-mindedness to buy the washing detergent, but leave the supermarket with bags of groceries. You get distracted from your single-mindedness by the products and promotions. Sure you end up with the detergent in the end, but coupled also possibly with regret/guilt and lesser money to spend on other things. But I guess we are only human.


Just grabbing the detergent?
In my last 6 months of my university education, I know what my single goal is, my "detergent". I must not get distracted by the other temptations as I move towards it. Temptations come in the forms of new experiences, re-visiting old experiences, self-indulgence in frivolous questions, and many other things you can think of. But I must learn to shrug them off. No one said it was going to be easy, but I am not going to give up without a fight.

But would it also not be silly if I came across an exceptional promotion item, a once in a lifetime chance (say, to buy Ben & Jerry's at half price), and just give it up just because of my ardent single-mindedness? Well, I guess it is about a balance and discernment; to know what rare experiences I may have a last shot experiencing before heading back home I should not give up just because of my single purpose. I have to be discerning. Its not easy though. But where else better to learn than in university, when else better to learn than now?

The history worth caring about is the one we are writing today. Got that from Grey's Anatomy last evening. How true, isn't it? Possibly a colloquial form of carpe diem.

I know what I must do. I know what I must do to write a history today I won't regret tomorrow.

Come. Join me.

Uncle T